Pumpkins 2012

Roomie Pumpkin Carving (Our Last Year)

BOOOOOOOO

Say hello to my friend Casper

Buildings and Beauty Marks

I'm kinda going to miss that building behind me that has been like a home to me for the past four years.

Also, I realize.. I have a beauty mark similar to the likes of Julia Roberts, Marily Monroe, and Goldie Hawn. Given me a new appreciation for the mark on my chin :)

Nostalgic

I hate when I get all nostalgic about events in the past, because while it's fun to reminisce it's painful to think I will never experience those times again. Never have those exact moments. I started thinking of the play performances I did in high school specifically "Noises Off". That play was one of the best times of my life. And I guess I kind of miss the person I was. Even though I appreciate who I am now... the girl I was during that year of my life was rather enchanting. I was incredibly happy at that time, doing what I love with people that I loved. I guess you just have to look forward to the future with hope and expectation of those kind of moments. And I've learned you have to reach out to what brings you that kind of happiness; often it doesn't just happen.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I want to recapture that part of myself and chase after those moments.

Feel more like that enchanting girl again.

To Each Their Own

The newest episode of glee was fairly emotional as well as thought provoking, which isn't it's usual tune. I thought the writers did a very good job at addressing a controversial topic with religion/spirituality while maintaining an equal balance on point of views. It had a few moments of religious humor where it poked fun, and then moments of genuine heartfelt faith. But mostly I liked how it showed that everyone should get past what they want to hear or don't want to hear and what they want to believe or don't want to believe: we should be able to show love and support to each other in our own desired ways. No one is 100% sure how we came to be, so don't be arrogant by thinking you are the one person in the entire world who has it exactly right. Neither has the right to lecture one another, more importantly be open and respectful of each others' beliefs.

What I believe is in no way harmful to others and is a part of who I am. Our country screams at the top of its lungs for equality and fights against discrimination. I have never discriminated against those who don't share my beliefs and I expect the same treatment. You can't take my faith from me, and I won't push my faith on you. I am a better person for what I believe, and honestly if for some reason I'm wrong... I didn't lose anything. Both sides of the argument can be argued with facts, but what I can't get past is the complexity of what we feel? experiencing miracles? the power and stretch of love? the perfect setup of our world? the founding of right vs wrong and human nature?

It's all so fascinating. God is good.

To each their own. We should be valued for who we are and what we do, not what we believe.

Every Moment Of Our Lives We Are Either Growing Or Dying

Dodged Bullet

Dodging bullets can be such a relief. New guy summed up: big flirt, has to be in a relationship at all times, and is all over the place. Just had a talk about "us" (aka DTR) last night and today he is in a relationship. He came on super strong and acted like he wanted to be together 6 months from now and have my babies.. blah blah blah. Basically because I didn't want to jump into a relationship right away he couldn't deal. Um new guy... that's why I don't jump into a relationship.. but we weren't well suited for each other. So I'll just say Mahalo and move on.

Ok vent over... That felt good. It's somewhat of a crime to be an independent girl who has her head on straight these days. What happened to guys pursuing a girl with romance and gumption?

Yeah I said it, gumption. Where did the gumption go?

Quote that made my day: Matt- "Ok girlfriend... I'm onto you, and so is everyone else."

I'm A Creep.

It's never simple when it comes to relationships. And it doesn't help when you don't excel at articulating what you need out of a guy. haha. In my last relationship I wanted everything from my boyfriend, I was ready to go at full speed. Now there is this guy in the picture who wants to jump ahead and I have no clue what I want. I don't want to have an exclusive relationship right away, but don't want to have nothing...

shit.

Mad World

It's that time again... the time of feeling like I'm drifting in between two worlds. The world of college is ending and the world of reality is on the horizon. The unknown is always a bit scary, but I'm going to take what I'm handed and run with it because the unknown can also mean limitless opportunity. I look at life as a story, and going through challenging parts create a better story. I'm excited for my first crappy apartment, lowly yet highly demanding job, and heart wrenching first love; but that's just me. I know all these things are matter-of-fact, and there are certain things that I will have to make happen. A continuous effort to make every day count. My goal: I want to live a life exaggerated and worth looking at. I hope I can remind myself to live creatively, love endlessly, give generously and explore vigorously. There are endless amounts of goals I have for myself, it would be just absurd if I accomplished it all. But I can embrace absurdity. That's a word right? ha.