Epiphany

Epiphanies are sometimes good, sometimes bad. I hate when I have one that I don't particularly like, but it is what it is.

Wow my shortest blog post ever.

I Wish I Could Save You

http://www.marshillchurch.org/media/special/32-hours-the-church-in-haiti

Just watched this and it was deeply saddening but incredibly moving and beautiful too. Haiti has my prayers. It's unreal to see a world so different from my own and the devastation that is unimaginable for us. Christ followers there, even after this tragedy and destruction, they maintain great faith and praise God. A pastor who's church was destroyed and his people caught in the rubble, including his wife, yells with agony crying out to God, but still ends with the word "hallelujah". It brought me to tears.

At the end of the video the pastor of Mars Hill church calls out the church members for not having a more active role. Not only elsewhere but even in their own church. We have all these resources at our fingertips, not only tangible resources, and we do not give. I felt for him as you could see the overwhelming emotions in his face. His disappointment. Sorrow. Urgency. DO SOMETHING. He yelled. It woke me up. I'm someone who has not be doing enough. I prayed.... "I'm sorry". Tears. Amen.

Infinite

"Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life." - (500) Days of Summer

This I find to be true. But I also find it to be true that a moment, an experience, a day can be significant enough to change your life. Make a lasting impression that you will never forget. I think each of us craves this all the time, which is why we crave adventure, risk, something new. Being in La Push this Saturday was a moment that changed me, just in the slightest way. Crossing the water, climbing the rock and looking around the bend at one of the most beautiful sights. I was afraid to take the risk, but the things you're afraid of are usually the most worthwhile. It was one of those moments where you feel time stops and nothing can bring you down from this high. And to be standing there with two friends made the moment even more special because I got to share it with someone. I hope I have many lasting memories ahead of me, good or bad, I know it'll shape who I become. And I'm excited for that.

What Good Are Words

Wow.. I forgot for awhile there that I have a blog. I find it kinda funny that I have a blog because aren't they supposed to be the insight to your personal thoughts? And that's actually not a talent of mine. I am never able to quite articulate what exactly I want to say so usually what comes out is some jumbled version of what I want to say, what I think I'm supposed to say, or just what is easiest to say. Sometimes useful, but mostly frustrating cause it usually creeps up on me and bites me in the butt. I guess the best way to really know what someone is feeling or thinking is to look at their actions, I do believe actions speak louder than words, but words do help. It's like how people say 90% of what you're saying isn't coming out of your mouth.

Today I went to Starbucks to journal and reflect as the New Year is beginning, and it was wonderful. I sat by the fireplace and journaled like crazy. Then did my devotionals while listening to the new moon soundtrack and watching the rain fall outside the window. I had a great year last year, but there's some definite changes for the better that should be considered or made. When I compare this January to last year's January it feels like I'm much more antsy. For some reason I feel some kind of urgency or rush to find something or feel something. See once again hard for me to explain. I hope I can enjoy what comes my way this month and just let everything go.

One of my friends mentioned this whole thing of developing 6 new hobbies. You focus on one hobby for 2 months. So my first new hobby I want to develop/focus on for the month of January and February is painting. I've dabbled in it, but haven't totally thrown myself into it. I'd like to see what I can really do and I feel like now is a good time to explore expressing through a different form of art. I'm passionate about art so this should be a fun new avenue of that passion.

Well goodnight and sweet dreams.