Love

Ok, I don't know if I'm the only one who has done this, but awhile back I made a list of qualities I want in a husband. Near the top of the list is "passionate". One of my favorite movies is "Becoming Jane" and when I think of passion I think of the scene at the ball where Jane is outside by the fountain contemplating the offer of marriage from Wesley (a decent man, but she does not love him). Then Tom Lefroy (a man of higher status than Jane, but who has fallen for her) comes out and says "How could you of all people dispose of yourself without passion?", Jane replies, "How can I dispose of myself with it? ... You're leaving tomorrow." Then she kisses him. He caresses her cheek, they stare into each other's eyes and she says, "I wanted to be able to do it well just once." Then they are overwhelmed with their love for each other and decide they must follow what they feel and know is right. They excitedly discuss what can be done!

Then Lefroy says, "Jane I'm yours, I'm yours heart and soul"

I remember watching that scene one night and starting to pray and hope that I would have that kind of love. Someone who will be mine heart and soul and I his in return. But is that unrealistic to want that deep, breath taking love full of passion? And to want to go wherever each other are just to be with each other? Part of me thinks that it might be too rare. But then I think that love is meant to be like that because that's what makes a marriage, a commitment, to someone last forever.

But then in the movie, Tom and Jane don't get to be together... that love is there, but they don't get to have it. They sacrifice it for the sake of others they care about. So maybe some people only get to experience that love but not have it forever. I hope I get to have it forever.

yup this is what goes on in my head.