Every Moment Of Our Lives We Are Either Growing Or Dying

Dodged Bullet

Dodging bullets can be such a relief. New guy summed up: big flirt, has to be in a relationship at all times, and is all over the place. Just had a talk about "us" (aka DTR) last night and today he is in a relationship. He came on super strong and acted like he wanted to be together 6 months from now and have my babies.. blah blah blah. Basically because I didn't want to jump into a relationship right away he couldn't deal. Um new guy... that's why I don't jump into a relationship.. but we weren't well suited for each other. So I'll just say Mahalo and move on.

Ok vent over... That felt good. It's somewhat of a crime to be an independent girl who has her head on straight these days. What happened to guys pursuing a girl with romance and gumption?

Yeah I said it, gumption. Where did the gumption go?

Quote that made my day: Matt- "Ok girlfriend... I'm onto you, and so is everyone else."

I'm A Creep.

It's never simple when it comes to relationships. And it doesn't help when you don't excel at articulating what you need out of a guy. haha. In my last relationship I wanted everything from my boyfriend, I was ready to go at full speed. Now there is this guy in the picture who wants to jump ahead and I have no clue what I want. I don't want to have an exclusive relationship right away, but don't want to have nothing...

shit.

Mad World

It's that time again... the time of feeling like I'm drifting in between two worlds. The world of college is ending and the world of reality is on the horizon. The unknown is always a bit scary, but I'm going to take what I'm handed and run with it because the unknown can also mean limitless opportunity. I look at life as a story, and going through challenging parts create a better story. I'm excited for my first crappy apartment, lowly yet highly demanding job, and heart wrenching first love; but that's just me. I know all these things are matter-of-fact, and there are certain things that I will have to make happen. A continuous effort to make every day count. My goal: I want to live a life exaggerated and worth looking at. I hope I can remind myself to live creatively, love endlessly, give generously and explore vigorously. There are endless amounts of goals I have for myself, it would be just absurd if I accomplished it all. But I can embrace absurdity. That's a word right? ha.

Sometimes a girl needs to feel like she has a new start, and sometimes that new start can be achieved by new hair :)

we will see if your insanity can be cured

Ugh.... finals week. It comes around twice a year and makes people face insanity. My recommendations for finals week is COFFEE (lots of it), christmas songs, and harry potter movies. That should do the trick to get you through. I can't believe after next week I will officially be a senior in college!

This is how I feel right now: "Is this real life? I can't see anything.... a;adlajsaf;kdsjflsdkf"

haha.